心情@623

一個月後

我完全冇諗過返黎哩度寫post個心情竟然係咁

我真係好傷心

我真係好想問點解

但事實擺在眼前,我無話可說

只怪我選擇左一條不歸路

條路係我自己揀既

我亦都唔奢望會有任何改變

無論以後有幾辛苦..

我都會勇敢行落去...

SaB日記@516

話說上個星期4成績出喇窩

咁今次我考成點咧?

哈哈

今次係我入College之後第一次考全科pass

仲有3科pending緊..一定要儘快搞點晒去

上一個post,就話我買左好多野喇...

我朋友話

我D野都已經到齊喇..

其中包括專輯(Gee+Genie+RDR)

RDR海報

5套photocard

但係最貴o個3樣就未到..

原因係因為今次同一個新既賣家買

我同我朋友們都好惊俾人呃

因為o個個人話上上個星期6已經將貨物寄出

但係我朋友都今日都未收到貨,已經成8日喇

希望o個個人唔係呃我地架喇

話晒大家都係Sone...應該互相幫忙架嘛

之後就係今日官方網站終於都公佈左所謂既Big News

不出我地所料,真係有關日本一輯既消息

豪華版大概要成馬弊311

但係唔買又唔得窩

所以???

破產喇破產喇...

收集專輯,係一種病態..

一旦開始左,將會無法自拔

我的近況...

最近我做左D乜?hmm...慢慢寫先
話說我而家就放緊假喇
上星期3就同班同學仔去左馬六甲玩
A Famosa ..xD
睇到D動物仔覺得佢地真係好得意
但係唔知點解我內心永遠都會覺得佢地好慘
明明佢地係屬於大自然
但係而家偏偏被困於一個小小既範圍中
我只能希望o個度D工作人員能夠好好地咁對待班小動物
成個Trip都好開心,但係有發生左一件不幸的事情
就係我左腳傷左,到今日都仲痛..又痕窩..悲哀呀

Erm,之前我有個post提到我買左成300幾蚊既野
全貨到齊喇,勁愛呀
但係我WL又點會咁容易放過收集既機會呀
等我今日又寫下我最近又訂左D乜喇
-Gee Japanese Ver. First Press Limited Ver.
-Genie Japanese Ver. First Press Limited Ver.
-New Beginning of Girls'Generation in Japan
以上3張+埋一齊已經用左我Rm500,因為已經屬於絕版貨
-Run Devil Run Album
-Gee Mini Album
-Genie Mini Album
以上3張純粹買多張收藏,哩3張又用左Rm140喇
-Gee Japanese Ver. Card 10pcs
-Hoot PhotoCard 18pcs
-2011 Girls'Generation Calendar PhotoCard 10pcs
哩3套卡又用左我Rm30喇(不過賣家係朋友,所以有Sponsor..xD)
佢仲話特別整左套卡俾我..唔知係點既咧..期待中...xD
-Run Devil Run Poster
哩張野Rm20,因為屬於絕版官方poster
-Hoot Japanese Ver. First Press Limited Ver.
哩張又用左Rm210喇,點解?因為就黎絕版喇..好在訂得快
-少女時代見聞錄(日本出版)
哩個Rm65,但係全部日本字,睇得明一D,又唔明一D..純粹收藏
因為日本出版D野好容易絕版
-Vogue雜誌4月刊(韓國版)
哩本Rm55,我買係因為入面有少女時代D靚相..尤其係Yuri"Oppa",哈哈,勁man

全部野++埋埋條數都幾...phew~~~~
不過唔好諗咁多,到時D貨到手,一定開心到爆
而家我靜心等待我既Mr.Taxi First Press Limited Ver.寄黎
希望今次小卡能夠抽到我Honey-->Sunny

永恒...无望...的爱

秋露仿彿一團白煙

從住宅的後門飄了過去

這些秋露就如同無聲的煙火般

在附近一帶蔓延

在秋露飄漫中

依稀可見遠方有許多桔梗花

這些花兒如同一張薄棉被般

在秋露中綻放這寂寞.....

從此它就是如夢般的秋露

無聲的煙火

以及在那遍地花草的平原上傳過來的陣陣笛聲

寂靜而永恆細緻脆弱的花瓣

白的....紫的....

還有白色紫邊和藍邊

於是開始有人把桔梗

送情人也送給永不再見的人

因為它既是永恆

也是無望

抑或是

永恆無望的愛...

節選自<日>三島由紀夫<繁花盛開的森林>

多久了?

看著手機上顯示的時間和日期

我在想著..到底多久了?

快兩個月了...我們沒好好談過

從上次我狠狠對你說了那句話後

我們就沒好好的談過了

是我錯了嗎?我想是吧...

我在想,如果我當初沒有那麼對你

可能我們現在還好好的吧

明明以前通話顯示或是訊息聯絡人排第一的都是對方

可是現在卻不是了

以前你老是說我什麼什麼的

可是這次換做我這樣對你的時候

為什麼就變成這樣了...

真的是我說得太過份了嗎?

我想我們真的回不去了

最熟悉的陌生人,

對不起,我錯了.......

以前是如此的熟悉

可是現在卻感覺如此的陌生

我怎麼了?

這兩天我都在反復的問我自己

到底我怎麼了???

可是我卻一直得不到我要的答案

不過,剛剛我靈光一閃

我知道我到底要怎麼做才不會再這樣下去

我還真的是一個傻瓜

現在

我終於明白了...

只有我不知道的故事...

319@九校聯歡會

當日一早就起身準備出門

去到地鐵站等齊人再一齊出發到Sentul

之後發覺原來我地3個係最老既Senior

咁當然我地係唔會認老架喇..xD

仲掉轉叫我地D學妹學弟Senior

逼佢地叫我地Junior ..

當日最期待既當然係自己學校既表演

''Hit In 4 Minute''

聽個名就知道勁喇... xD

大概7至8個人大跳韓國歌

爽呀!!!

果然冇令我失望呀

我既職責就一定非尖叫莫屬

當Break Time既時候發生左一個小小插曲

話說988開心車隊黎到現場玩游戲派禮物

兜兜轉轉唔知點解我俾個女DJ叫左起身

佢就叫我隨便唱一首歌既Chorus部份

估下我唱咩歌?

係邊位唱既歌我諗大家都估到

當然係容小姐D歌喇

但係我問過Evien

佢都話佢估都估唔到我竟然會唱'心淡'

哈哈

最終當然成功贏取一份獎品喇..

就係Ayamas既Meal Voucher

我同Evien係個show完後就返Ampang搞掂張Voucher喇

哈哈..

不過都有少少失望..

聽聞今年既9校聯歡會係最後一屆喇

有少少唔開心

原因好簡單,因為哩個係最好睇同最好玩既聯歡會

可惜今次係最後一次喇..

Haiz...

Im A Crazy Collector

Just a short update

Few days ago i just spend another Rm380 for my collections ..

hahax , I really can't control myself

once I saw something nice and I will buy it as my collections

Does this a good habit OR bad habit ? xD

So ... What I have order ? Hmmm ...

- 1 Bag

- 4 Album

- 2 Lightstick

- 1 Balloon

- 2 Photobook

- 3 Phone Accessories

- 1 Set of Card

Rm380 for so many item , well ..

CHEAP AHHH ... DAI DOU LAN

Now what I need to do is just to wait

wait for my things sit aeroplane from Korea to M'sia

then wait PostLaju to send it to my home ..

Estimate time to reach here should be end of March ..

WoW !!

I'm Expecting .....

Update @ 22/3

Hahax.. i have spend another Rm90 for SNSD's Album

But this album will only reach here about end of april .. hmmmp, such a long time

But still ... hehex

I'm waiting .. I'm expecting

Just For YOU !!!! 67 !!!

有好多時候

我一臉無所謂唔發脾氣

唔代表我唔會嬲

我唔當場鬧你係因為我俾面你

同時係唔想嘈..

但係請你唔好得寸進尺

一旦你越過界超越我能夠忍耐既範圍內

我話你知..你會死得好慘

我一定會當眾落9你面,完全冇面俾

吊臭就吊臭...我唔惊囉... 67!!!

仲有..做人唔好咁驕傲

唔好俾人贊多幾贊就松毛松翼

有一句話叫做'上帝要你滅亡必先令你瘋狂'

做人唔好做得太過份..留D余地唔會少塊肉既

你以為自己爬得快爬得高過人就等於好犀利?

小心撲9死你呀...

請你學下點去尊重人...

人地唔出聲就唔代表你可以繼續咁對人

有好多時候人地都係唔想魚9你o者

如過再有下次我包你魚到爆!!!

我係一個有仇必報既人...

人對我好,我對人好

你對我衰,我就一樣對你衰

你點對我,我一有機會我一定會以牙還牙

你好至為之...

祝你好運!!!

My Love Is Late , I'm Sorry

Eventhough you're always by my side
One day you'll just pass me by
There was always a line drawn down the middle of us
You know how i am , i always one step behind
I must of ignored what my heart was trying to tell me
Watching you looking like you were about to burst into tears
I just pushed you away silently
I think i know , trying not to make my heart feel sorry
You tried your best
I had a person like you by my side and didn't even realize love had come to me
Even till the moment u left , I didn't realize love had left me
I now know my heart is aching because of you
I'm so sorry my love is too late
I didn't even know my own heart
And yet i used to go around pretending to know what love was
I'm so tired , because i think of you so much and because i can't remember
Just thinking of that one thing i start to tear up again
I had a person like you by my side and didn't even realize love had come to me
Even till the moment u left , I didn't realize love had left me
I now know my heart is aching because of you
I'm so sorry my love is too late
I must have kept fooling myself and turning my head the other way
I must have cause myself pain because i was afraid of happiness
You haven't forgotten me yet right ?
You're attachment is always one step behind
If i wait you'll come won't you ... it's my turn to be in pain
From now on i'll be ur best love
My beginning is slower than yours
Longer than you
I'll love even more than you loved me

紅!!

個Title點解會係'紅'一字咧?

'紅'可以代表好多野既

咁先講好架喇

第一就係我終於都染左一頭紅髮

雖然唔係好明顯

但係如果o係有光既情況地下的確幾紅架

不過本人就覺得有D怪

昂係覺得個髮色帶D紫

類似紫紅色

不過又唔會偏紫窩

總括黎講我都滿意個colour

好喇,到第二件事喇

紅俗稱火

火亦可代表憤怒

係呀,最近的確有條某犁令人憤怒呀

睇到佢D一舉一動就勁嬲

開頭我都仲可以忍耐

但係而家真係越睇越唔順眼

攪到我火到黎埋

真係好想兜口兜面鬧爆你個大頭菜

好心你就過主喇

令人好反胃想作嘔

唔好以為自己對人做左少少野

人地受左你欣慰就要奉承你

想做偉大人士想名流千史

都唔係用咁既方法既

你對人好,人唔一定需要對你好

得唔到自己預期般所想既時候

就係度埋怨人

人係你肚裡面條蟲呀?

知你諗乜Q野呀?

想對人好既有係你,冇人逼你架窩

之後就講人對你唔好

正諷刺!!!

唔好笑甩人個嘴喇

唔好永遠用你理所當然既理論去傚法所有事

話你知呀,到最終你都只會失敗

永遠唔會成功

點解?

因為你o係D唔應該既時候逼得太緊

最後只會帶黎反效果

而唔會帶任何好處俾你

就算原本會成功既事俾你咁逼法

係人都往後退兩步之後就有咁遠走咁遠喇

無知!!!

正一腦部阻塞白痴瘋癲友

發狗瘟唔該走遠D喇

正撲街

Dreams

Oh Baby~ touch the sky .. fly higher

Just this once tell me everything that's in your heart

We're no longer in that time .. where i didn't know you

Until the ends of this rough world ... to that far away place

Can you take me with you forever ?

This feeling of longing for you happens twelwe times a day

If that day comes ... where this message will go to you ?

It's okay if tears come because i will be happy

Even though it may be abit difficult

I'll always get through them ...

Oh Baby~ dreams come true

A dream that can't fall asleep

Hold me just like how rain falls together

Even in times where tears may fall

If i'm with you ... i can smile

Come to me , promise me forever be my love

Through sweet stories

Through whispers between just the two of us

Let me dream of the tomorrow

That's right before us

Oh Baby~ touch the sky ... fly higher
Just this once tell me everything that's in your heart
We're no longer in that time ... where i didn't know you
Until the ends of the rough world ... to that far away place
Can you take me with you forever ??

Someday

I hope these tears will stop running someday

Someday after this darkness clears up

I hope the warm sunshine dries these tears

When i feel that I'm getting tired of seeing myself exhausted

I want to keep all the dreams that I've kept so hard

Everytime i feel that I'm lacking many things , most of them , i don't have

I lose strength in my legs and drop down

I hope these tears will stop running someday

Someday after this darkness clears up

I hope the warm sunshine dries these tears

Everyday i hold out comforting myself , It'll be okay

Day by day , it makes me a little more afraid

I tell myself to believe in myself , but i don't

Now i don't know how much longer i can hold out

But wait , it'll come , it'll come

Although the night is long , the sun will come out

Someday my painful heart will get well

I hope it helps me out now

I hope the god will help me

I don't have any confidence , any more to comfort myself

I hope these tears will stop running someday

Someday after this darkness clears up

I hope the warm sunshine dries there tears

But wait , it'll come , it'll come

Although the night is long , the sun will come out

Someday my painful heart will get well

Someday ... Someday ...

劇本

哩兩日都不停係度睇劇本

睇完兩本劇本

發覺兩本都寫得好好

但係本人就比較鍾意第一本

唔知點解

當我睇緊D劇本既時候

腦海不斷浮現劇中畫面

哈哈

覺得好搞笑

睇到D比較特別既部份既時候

我自己竟然會不自覺地對住部電腦笑

個手仲不停咁打落自己對腳度

由其係第一本

簡直就頂唔順劇中D情節

笑死人...

不過都有感動既部份

至於第二本就比較偏向傷感

睇度最後0個part我竟然眼濕濕

雖然我睇既劇本係有D特別

比起普通男女愛情更加特別

但就真係好惹人發笑

睇到我D毛孔都樹起晒..

真係好鬼死肉麻..

哈哈

雪の花

Long shadows next to each other on the sidewalk

Walking with you in the twilight

If i can be by your side forever , holding hands

It might make me cry

The wind is getting cold

I felt the scent of winter

Soon the season will come to this town

The season i can stand close to you

The first snow flowers of the year

Looking at them side by side with you

The moment is filled with happiness

Not being dependant or weak

I just love you

It comes from my heart

When you're here

No matter what happens

I feel like i can get through anything

I am praying that these days will last forever

The wind shook the window

You can wake me up in the night

No matter how sad you will be

I will turn every sadness into a smile

The snow flowers that fell from the sky

Out of the window

Not knowing how to stop

Whitening up our town

When you want to do something for someone

I learned , that is love

If i ever lost you

I would be a star and shine on you

When you are smiling

The night wet with tears

Always, whenever, I will be by your side

The first snow flowers of the year

Looking at them side by side with you

The moment is filled with happiness

Not being dependant or weak

I just want to be with you like this forever

I honestly think so

The white snow flowers falling on this town

Drawing the memory in our hearts

With you, from now .... until forever

無題...

盼望會遇到你出現

多感動 有能你在面前

抱著你度過各種考研

相愛終身 角色不要變

想要的 稀奇的 現況和夢想有偏差哪有幸免

誰真的相信 有愛大過天?

時候已不早 你要走 請你走

請別再拖 去掩飾你內疚

完全地佔有過 難保鬆脫的手

怎可以用眼淚 去保證永久

我明白你苦心 就只是開不了口

別讓我等 我懂得過就夠

情時常出現變化 難于執子之手

無常的感覺 我一早就意會透

拼命愛過受傷了 我儲蓄經驗

早感受 相處便更自然

我掛念戀愛會像最初體驗

不奢望最終不會變

曾心愛的 轉淡的 知道分開 哪有幸免

重新出發 是這份信念永恆不變

時候已經不早 如果你要走 請你走

這段記錄世上只有...再沒悔恨已極罕有

回合太久必會分開 裡面總有著各樣因由

曾從心走過 方可領悟透......

So Close ....

You're in my arms

And all the world is calm

The music playing on

For only two

So close together

And when i'm with you

So close to feeling alive

A life goes by

Romantic dreams must die

So i bid mine goodbye

And never knew

So close was waiting

Waiting here with you

And now forever i know

All that i want is hold you

So close

So close to reaching

That famous happy end

Almost believing

This one's not pretend

Now you're beside me

And look how far we've come

So far

We are ....... So Close

Oh how could i face the faceless days

If i should lose you now

We're so close to reaching

That famous happy end

Almost believing

This one's not pretend

Let's go on dreaming

Though we know we are

So close

So close and still ....... So Far

如同死屍

再多幾個小時

我就要踏入考場考試

但係我竟然一D感覺都冇

如同行尸走肉

得個軀殼

人人都為考試以擔心緊張

但係我到哩一刻

依然好坦然咁上網

完全冇拿起本書的興致

究竟係我已經麻木習慣

或是係我真係懶成咁咧?

有時0係度諗

如果我完成我當時既理想

往音樂方面發展

會唔會好D咧?

因為我根本都離唔開音樂

冇音樂我會死

如果唔係音樂

我諗我根本冇而家咁快樂

因為我搵唔到任何比音樂

更加好既發泄管道

人

當每一個人

經歷過唔同既事情

會慢慢地作出改變

人

有分幾種

第一種係

從小就0係一個快樂健康既家庭成長

備受百般呵護

哩種小朋友長大後

就會變得不懂人情

自私自利,死愛面

小姐少爺脾氣

原因係因為佢地至小就俾寵壞

嬌身慣養,經唔起任何風浪

第二種係

從小就0係一個唔開心既家庭長大

受盡悲傷悲痛的折磨

哩種小朋友長大後

會變的自卑,悲觀

容易俾人利用,甚至呃

原因係因為佢地至少就俾忽略

缺少愛於關懷,所以當有人關心或者對佢好D

佢就會百分百相信0個個人

但係最終結果係被人利用

第3種係

從小就0係一個唔健康既家庭長大

看盡人類千萬既丑態

慢慢地會變得妒忌同怨恨哩個世界

哩種小朋友長大後

會變得奸險,狡猾

會變成咁既原因

唔係因為佢冇家教

係因為佢缺乏安全感

至小就領會人同人之間既丑態

佢唯有先下手為強

因為只要先打倒對手

自己先會安全...

以上耐係我本人的少少睇法

所以我覺得,世界上冇一個人係完全好人或者係壞人

我地亦唔好只睇表面

有時人既野...好難講

任何一個人既性格都唔同

係因為所有人背後都有住唔同既故事.....